so...election day is tomorrow.

and i'm just kinda numb to at this point. my absentee ballot has been sent. i was lame as hell this weekend and didn't go to either of the days of volunteering i'd signed up for. yeah...that's bad. in my defense, i've got a cold and am trying to keep it manageable so that i can go to work and pay bills(mother fuckers), but still. i didn't call or anything because i kept telling myself "i'll feel well enough to make second shift." but no, i did not.

what do i do if bush wins again? fuck...i don't know. it'll be an interesting interesting sight all around the world, that's for sure. i don't want to face up to the fact that kerry has a chance. but that's just stupid because isn't hope the thing that defeats this climate of fear this country is so engrossed in?

i also am well aware that living where i do i'm not actually in reality. this city is amazingly progressive and liberal and signs and stickers are everywhere. granted, drive 15 minutes in any direction and those signs go away and the conservative blood becomes thick once again, but bush winning just doesn't seem like an option here.

again, though, even if kerry does win, bush is going to have a lot of support. and that just so consistently boggles my mind. and reminds me that politics in america is the equivalent of the world series - full of shameless pride and ridiculous agression. because the facts absolutely do not point towards rewarding this farce of a leader with another 4 years. he has screwed the entire world up the ass with a chainsaw.