ok, listen folks.

if you're gonna read this thing and judge me, fine. if you're gonna read this thing, judge me, and then let it influence how you interact with me and who you think i am, shove it up your ass. if you're going to read this and think that it can substitute for communicating with me to see what's really going on in my life, again: shove it up your ass. i don't care how close we are.

this is an online journal. it is where i write about things that i don't feel like talking about sometimes. of course it is self centered. of course things can seem petty. but that's exactly what it's here for. it doesn't cover the complications in my life or the hardships. why? because i don't think this is the forum for that. usually the things that happen in my life that are truly difficult stay with me. you might get a glimpse of it here. if you want to get into my history with me, strike up a conversation, i'm game. but do not think that because you read this, and i post a lot, that you have the slightest clue what's going on in my every day life. reading this is not a substitute for a friendship.


and do NOT tell me that my life is easy and that i need to join the real world because you read here about my exploits in partying and listening to music. you haven't got a clue what exactly has gone on in my life to make me who i am. trust me, you just don't.