i just wrote the most amazing journal entry i have ever written. i'm so fucking proud of myself right now. and wanting to go run outside in the middle of the night...just run and feel the cold wind on my face and smile...


and it was all spurred by a song. a song that i posted here a while back, but that just hit me on the way home. so i'm gonna post the words again. because this song has just worked its way into it's eternal position in my heart.

you & i
(jason mraz)

was it you who spoke the words
that things would happen but not to me
things are gonna happen naturally
and taking your advice
i'm looking on the bright side
and balancing the whole thing
and often times those words get tangled up in lines
and the bright light turns to night
until the dawn it brings another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

because you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others only dream of the love that i love

see i'm all about them words
over numbers, unencumbered, numbered words
hundreds of pages, pages, pages fowards
more words than i had ever heard and i feel so alive

because you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others only read of and if you could see me now
now you and i you and i
not so little you and i any more
and with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the story of a boy


you and i both loved what you and i spoke of
and other just read of
and if you could see me now well then i'm almost out of
well i'm almost finally finally
well i am free

and it's ok if you had to go away
oh just remember the telephones, well they're working them both ways
but if i never ever hear them ring
if nothing else, i'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
and that's ok
cuz i remember everything you sang

cuz you and i both love
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see me now
well then i'm almost finally out of words


this song is SO GOOD! i recommend buying his cd just for it(though the rest is fantastic as well.) go to best buy. it's $9.99.

anyway. i'm really excited about this song. it all just makes so much sense and sent me on this huge bout of self exploration, and soulmate exploration and...yeah. good stuff.