great googly moogly. last night i went into the bathroom and there was this MASSIVE wolf spider in the bath tub. now, i have a deal worked out with the little spiders around my house - cuz there's a lot here in the desert - if they just won't crawl on me while i'm sleeping, i won't kill them.

but this one...this one was way way way too big. *shudder shudder shudder*

but my fear is so great that i couldn't deal. so yes. at 3 in the morning, i went and woke my mom up so she could get rid of it while i stood on the other side of the house.

*shuddershuddershuddershudder*

anyway. i had two more things to write about.

the first being that they called to cancel my apt. for tomorrow. he's gotta go in for surgery. it's such a huge relief. i don't have to deal with it for 3 more weeks.

that said, at my last apointment i had told him that i was moving back to seattle october 14th. so this apointment was to serve as my final "go ahead and go" check up, since i wouldn't be here for my 3 month check up. if i was still planning on moving back next week...i'd be a mess right now. crying. realizing i'd have to wait 3 more weeks. god. i'm so fucking glad i made the decision to stay here. just...GOD. it would've been the same cycle all over again

item number two: the boys start playing hockey again starting tomorrow night. as i think i've said before, i'm really fucking excited. it also mean, though, that i'm going to see johnny. for the first time in like 2 years. and i'm not freaking out about it, really, it's just weird. especially because i've thought of him so much over the past few months - hell, i've even driven by his house on the off chance he'd be outside. i'm just really curious as to what's become of him. and i might be a total fool for saying it, but i think it'll be good to see him.

hopefully the bitch won't be there with him.

:)