oofda.

i decided that since i'm treating my body really really well as far as what i eat and drink, i should just quit the pain meds cold turkey.

i don't have words to describe what have got to be withdrawl headaches. they started yesterday...or the day before(i've totally lost track of my days) and have peaked tonight. forget back pain or sciatic pain. these things are unreal. so much so that i have had to rethink the cold turkey thing. ibuprofin does nothing to mute the pain and one can only endure so many hours...so i took a vicodin. tomorrow will see me researching how to beat painkiller addictions. i know i'm in the early stages, i just need a little reassurance and to know what the best way to go about weening myself is. it's not like i've abused my perscriptions at all. i've been way under dose eveery day. but still...3 weeks of vics and valium...not so good.

not helping the whole insomnia bit, but that's ok because there's lots of interesting stuff on tv. i was watching this medical miracles show. definitely brings some optimism to my life to see a man who lost his eyes and nose and upper palate to some flesh eating fungus and had a prosthetic face made. and i watched inside the actor's studio 100th show. and now i'm watching an oh so enlightening program on atomic weapons...from shelters and so on.

but at least my headache is down to a tolerable level.

i guess.

have i mentioned that i'm getting reiki treatments from my mom's friend? i'm really intereted in learning about it myself, so i read through a training manual and did a treatment on myself today. it is some very cool stuff. and it does help with these headaches to some extent, but so far i've found it to be very temporary.