just saw howie on mtv's "you hear it first" segment.

it made me smile. slowly. (one of the best ways to smile.)

i was expecting just a little tidbit, but it was rather lengthy. they focused quite a bit on the "inspired by dave matthews" factor. pretty interesting in light of the events of the past week.

wow. that was just...surreal.

everything is surreal these days. i was just talking to rach about it. like...this is my life, but i feel like i'm in a dream or something. my reality is so...just...weird. there was no adjustment period upon moving here, and it still kinda feels like i'm just on one of my trips. but...it doesn't. this is where i'm supposed to be.

and going to concerts seems to be just...what i do. seeing an artist multiple times in a period of a few days...normal. having to talk to tour managers about taping policies...goes with the job. getting home late at night after driving to another city to see a show and then going to work...not that big of a deal.

what did i do this weekend? my mom was in town and we did all kinds of touristy stuff and relaxed.

i forget that i effectively drove to portland basically to just smoke a joint with tim reynolds, have some weird nonsense conversations and then come back.

i just...is this my life?