i've written 63 pages in my journal since april 10th. i am so damned proud of that. and there's some really good stuff in there, which makes me even more proud. i still feel like i haven't really gotten down as deep as i'd like to, but i'm working up to it. i haven't written this much this often in a long long time. i'm finding it challenging to force myself to get up and grab the journal and pen whenever i have a thought that needs to be written down. it's such a good challenge, though. these are times of intense personal change, and while there's not really anyone i care to share it all with, i'm really glad all these thoughts aren't going unnoticed.