you know...i'm sorry if i kind of have issues when a family member who hasn't really been in our lives for years emails me and wants to get the details on my life. i mean, i'll answer direct questions, and i'm not gonna be rude, but when ya live 2 hours away and play it off as "oh! what's going on! your sister has kind of been keeping me updated on you... i really need to try and get up there to see you ." i wouldn't say i'm bitter that we have certain aunts and uncles who completely stayed out of things when daniel was initially diagnosed or when i went through all my back shit, but their absense has definitely made me rather indifferent, especially seeing as there were so many around who did assume the roles of family members and who did help us out as much as they could.

i mean i guess it's good to try and re-form ties with family. sure. rather than letting it all go until death. but still...i guess i'm just a little dubious.

ah, my family. i love 'em, but they're really only family by title, not in meaning.

well, lots of them anyway.

ok. i'm done :)