i'm really seriously thinking about staying here to finish school.

but i am so incredibly equally torn between two completely different paths i could take. i could struggle with this decision forever. people keep telling me to do whatever feels right...if it were that easy i'd have the decision made. it depends on which way the wind is blowing, or how bright the sun is shining. sometimes i want to scream i want out of tucson so badly. sometimes i'm indifferent. sometimes i really think it could work for another year and it'd make more sense.

then i think about how much i hate the UA and how annoyed the school makes me. and how awesome it'd be to go to this other school i've found in WA. but then i think how little i have left and how much i just want to be done with school. and then i think how i'd really like to graduate from a school that gives two shits about it's students and that would help place me in the real world and help me to figure out what i want to do. and then i remember that part of the reason i've done all the traveling and such in the past two years is because i've known that THAT was how i was gonna figure out what i want to do through figuring out who i am.

but i just don't know.

all i do know is that i was just looking through course descriptions, and i can't fucking wait to be back in school.

i just...gah. i can't make this decision.