i'm so annoyed right now.

why?

don't really know. just am.

i really really wanted to go out tonight. i really wanted to get drunk. but i can't seem to find a group of people and a place that i both want any part of. and part of me wants to just stay home and get drunk or high...but i live with my mom. and that would just be weird. and i don't feel like going to the regular hang out, because let's face it - i'm bored with it. and now a certain friend is giving me shit about it and i'm just like...fuck off :) everyone knows that i'm just not gonna do something i don't want to do.

and now i have a feeling she's pissed off because i have just heard of a party and have decided to go there, and she doesn't want to go and has been waiting around for me.

this is all completely petty but i don't care. that's what you get for reading my blog.