i cried today like i have never cried before. for like an hour. i just couldn't control it.

and then i went out and spent some time in a book store wandering around. i took a long drive home through the desert at sunset, up by the mountains, listening to btcs.

life is such a roller coaster. when it rains it pours. everything happens for a reason. all of these cliches make so much sense. but without these...my life wouldn't be as vibrant and vivid as it is. i know there's reasons things have happened as they have when they have. and i've done my best to figure these reasons out so that i might learn the lessons i'm supposed to learn and explore the relationships i'm supposed to explore.

and there IS a lot of good that is coming out of all of this. i have always been someone who treasures her relationships with people more than anything in the world. and i am going to come out of this phase of my life with friendships that were hardly even existant before i came home that are growing tighter with every single day.

god, life is complicated.