(note: i changed the layout of my blog so that it reads chronologically. yeah.)

so i apparently have a calming influence on people. i mean, i'm told this fairly regularly, but i think it's starting to sink in. one of the nurses at work came into the reception area yesterday while there were like 20 people there waiting to be checked in, and just stood there and watched. when they had all been taken back by their respective therapists, she comes up and is like "you just have this incredibly comforting aura about you. you bring an air of calm to this entire building. everyone has noticed it...are you sure you're not staying?" today, i went in to ask her a few questions, and for about the fifth time this week, i was told how someone is gonna cry when i leave because i do such a good job and things will be so hectic when i'm gone.

granted, i still don't even know when i'm leaving.

but it's definitely nice to get such positive responses. it was like that at my last job too. but these days i'm even more comfortable with myself and my life. i just don't get flustered. what's the use? no matter what happens, life goes on. no matter what happens, i've dealt with worse, i'm sure.

god, i can't wait to go home next week. i can't wait to see jane. and kim. and matt and and bob and jeremy and aden and paul and nik and don and maggie and kristy and jesse and ronak and colin and just...everyone. jack and leslie are even coming back for the weekend, so it'll be like a big reunion.

and i really really want to see nick. i've been tossing the idea of calling him around for a few days now, and for now i've decided not to. part of me just wants to run into him randomly and see what happens. see how it feels. see where it goes. i could take a more proactive roll and call him, but i don't want to deal with the insecurities that come along with that.

oh my god, and i can't wait to see my doggie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pleasegodpleasegodplease don't let my grandparents decide to visit next weekend. blech on that idea.

heh. i just found a condom wrapper on the ground. that is fantastic.