oh, and i'm still not done. i lied.

tomorrow night is the "company christmas party." i won't go into the origins of the name. it's just all of my highschool boys gathered for a gift exchange.

anyway. this is the only time of year i get really extremley insecure. old habbits die hard. it's just because i have to see the two girls who were my best friends through highschool who have been two of the main reasons behind my extreme issues with trust. i'm over it, and i've learned and i'm comfortable with myself and all that shit, but still...i can't help but lapse into that old frame of mind every once in a while. you know?

no, you probably don't.

because once again, i'm being vague.

PAPER JOURNAL, here i come!