we danced in the risk of eachother...
would you like to dance around the world with me...

aw. such a sweet song. i remember right after jack and rachel broke up, and the boy was all about this song. it actually made me ill, because the girl was a fucking psycho(and i mean that seriously.) so i said "hey! jack! what up, yo! let me play another song for you that was written about the same girl!" gotta give the boy a little taste of the halloween side of things.

but i know
no matter how fast we are running
some how we keep up with eachother

yeah, that's one of those songs i can't quite relate to. but damn, it's good.

back in the swing of things as far as school goes. i actually spent a good portion of today doing homework - something i really haven't done in a while. not for a year at least. sure as hell didn't do that last semester...

i think i might be going away next semester. i have this grand notion...heh. not really, i just wanted to say "grand notion." but anyway...i'd like to get an internship in some kind of social service field. either that or get a job in the same area, just so i can get a taste of it. while i'm a sociology major, i hadn't really planned on making that my chosen path - it's just something i'm extremley interested in that i know i'll be able to focus on through college. however, i would like to get my feet wet out in the field. i know it's something i'd be good at, and i need some experience to help me figure out whether or not it is in fact what i want to do.

that, and i'm realizing that i'm just not going to make it here for 2 more years. i love the people to death, but i'm dying to leave. tucson just ain't for me.

so where am i going?
well, i'm shooting for one specific place, but we'll see what happens. i hate saying anything before i've got something concrete.

someone on the freak list once said that we should make a sequel to "where's waldo" - "where's amanda?" that just might be a good idea.

man, i'm bored.

i was so proud of myself earlier. i went to matt's to pick up some tasty, tasty nugs...but i knew that i couldn't smoke. too much to do tonight. everyone began to gether in the living room, ready for a major session, and i caved and said i'd join in. but then i changed my mind. and left.

it's slightly sad how much willpower it took, but whatever. i really haven't been smoking as much as usual. granted, i've only been home a week(god, it's been a week since seattle...), but in that time i think i've smoked twice. which is record-breaking for me.

weed makes me brain-dead these days. i smoke, and i'm down for the rest of the day or night or whatever. which really sucks. i can't focus, i get tired as hell and i just don't want to do anything. guess it's my sign to slow down.

heh. that's why i'm only buying kind bud from now on. smaller quantity, tastier bud, better high...and even more incentive to smoke less often.

ok...now that my smoking habbits have been discussed...