alright. all this love and relationship shit is freaking me out. and i'm not even in it or in one. just the prospect. it's absolutely horrifying. and yes, i suppose that could be exhilerating, but i'm coming in contact with this neurotic side of me that i'm really hoping does not become permanent. i don't think it will. but fucking a - no wonder we're the "unstable" gender. the over analyzing and just general freaking out that go on as a result of the most slight interaction with someone who makes your pulse, no, your entire god damned life force change is just insane!!!!! WHY AREN'T WE ALL IN MENTAL INSTITUTIONS???

ahem.

carry on, carry on.