i cannot remember the last time i was this generally euphorically happy. i am so in love with everything right now that it's almost overwhelming. i have so much inside of me right now bubbling up and spilling over everywhere. and it's so complex and simple at the same time. i guess it's been building for a while, but then friday night i tripped with a bunch of the boys and my brain seriously just opened up and i had all these realizations and understand so many things on such a different level now. incredible.

and i should write about all this. but it's just too much. so instead, i have this burning need to talk about it and i just don't know that that's going to happen.

but i hope so. i really hope so.

i love spring time.


last night was century club and it was more fun than any of us have had in a long time(and we're a crew that tends to have a lot of fun). it was the most cracked out, hyper drunk i think i've ever been. that sexual energy is fueling me like you wouldn't believe.

oh and?
i love maroon 5. ADORE the cd. it is doing a fantastic job of being my life music at the moment and i can't get enough.


where you are seems to be
as far as an eternity
outstretched arms open hearts
and if it never ends then when do we start?
i'll never leave you behind
or treat you unkind
i know you understand
and with a tear in my eye
give me the sweetest goodbye
that i ever did receive

pushing forward and arching back
bring me closer to heart attack
say goodbye and just fly away
when you come back
i have some things to say

how does it feel to know you never have to be alone
when you get home
there must be someplace here that only you and i could go
so i can show you how i
dream away everyday
try so hard to disregard
the rhythm of the rain that drops
and coincides with the beating of my heart

i'll never leave you behind
or treat you unkind
i know you understand
and with a tear in my eye
give me the sweetest goodbye
that I ever did receive

pushing forward and arching back
bring me closer to heart attack
say goodbye and just fly away
when you comeback
i have some things to say

how does it feel to know you never have to be alone
when you get home
there must be someplace here that only you and i could go
so i can show you how i feel