oh yeah,and this...

my back. my lovely, lovely back. i have been in SO. MUCH. PAIN. every day at work. first day it didn't start til near the end. second day, about half way through. last 3 days, it starts as soon as i start walking to the building. blinding pain. except i'm not blinded. and i think i handle it quite well. inever fully understood the meaning of having a high tolerance to pain. i kinda just thought it meant you didn't really feel pain. but now i understand that while that is partially true, it just means you can go on with day to day activities while in severe pain. i mean...i wish there was some way of explaining it. all i know is my back hurts like FUCK(luckily there's been little nerve pain, which is good good sign), yet i'm in the most wonderful mood. and by the time i complete my drive home, it's mostly gone. except last night when it flared up really really bad.

anyway. it was a tiny bit better yesterday. two days off should help it to relax some. i'll keep doing my stretches and think positively, and just deal with it.