hello, how are you doing today...

in the midst of christine's drunken babbling on the way home last night i had a little realization...

i've always had quite a few more guy friends than girl friends. one or two close girlfriends at a time, most of whom have dicked me over in some way or another. and then several really close guy friends and several more just good guy friends. but i'm looking around now, and i'm suddenly living a life filled with quite a few more girls than guys. i'm not saying it's a bad thing, because these girls fucking rule for the most part. it's just incredibly strange.

there's a total lack of cool guys in my life right now.

wait, no. i take that back. there's a total lack of cool guys in my life in tucson right now. i've met many guys in the past few months that are virtually perfect, and who i can't seem to stop praising. i just can't hang out with them on a daily, or even weekly basis.

there are several things going on right now that are bringing to the surface all of my trust issues. this whole girl thing is one of them. but i think it's good. things are really starting to come together, and i'm figuring myself out more and more every day.

yeah.
that's it.
(dork.)